Day 1 of writing a Dream Diary:
I was all excited before sleeping. I kept a dream journal and a pen ready, next to my bed, so that I could jot my dream recalls as soon as I wake up. And then went off to sleep. Sometime in the night, I woke up to the constant nag of nature's call. As I got up from my bed, I realized I had woken up in the middle of a dream. Quickkkk! I gotta write this down before I forget. But my cats weren't amused. As soon as they saw me getting up, they started howling for food. Cats: "Calendar! Give us food, or else we will meowww the house down."👹 Me: "Oh dear! Let me just feed the cats quickly." Me: "Now let me just rush to the loo to get this out of the way as well". Phew! All done! I sat down on my bed to start writing down my dream recall, "peacefully". Damn! what the h*** was my dream ?!😱 In between the feeding of the cats and nature's nagging call, I had forgotten the dream. Most dreams are so wispy-light that they slip out of the mind as soon as we wake up and our mind gets occupied with the daily mundane chores/thinking. I turned left, I turned right (figuratively), but I just couldn't remember what the dream was about. "Ok. Let me try once again", I said to myself. I wasn't going to give in so easily. "Let me try recalling the tail end of my dream or let me try to remember which people were in my dream, or let me try to remember any scene from the dream." Thankfully few names of people could be recalled (odd people to be in my dream but nevertheless wrote them down). I could recollect some last few scenes from the dream - them odd too. Wrote them down as well. How did I feel after the dream? Well, they were neutral feelings. Wrote that down as well. Basically, I got bits and pieces of stuff from the end of the dream story, some stuff from the middle of the dream story. The dream didn't make sense but it is too early to analyze my dream. It is important first to get into a habit of recalling dreams for atleast 21-40 days, rather than analyzing whether the dreams are related to an unfulfilled action/desire that couldn't have been completed during waking hours or whether the dreams are indicative of some mental activity/stress in day to day life and too early to analyze whether the dream could be indicative of future events. Also I was feeling neutral after the dream. I think overall it was a decent start to my Dream writing adventure. Lesson to be learnt: Recall the dream as soon as eyes open. If needed, stay in bed for sometime and first try to recollect or relive the dream. Ingrain it in your head and then get up and write it down. #dreamanalysis #dreamjournal #dreamdiary #dreams Nightmares aren't fun.
And excessive dreaming isn't fun either, in-fact it is downright disturbing. But dreams definitely they tell us something, one - about our state of mind. Dreams would have important clues about an incident already occurred in our life, or we may complete our unfulfilled desires in our dreams, it may give clues of our over-worrying or overthinking and lets us know that we need to rest, and so on. Our dreams gives us clues of what we are constantly thinking, or what is stuck in our subconscious mind. which we may not be aware of consciously. These are important clues that should not be taken too literally in its meaning but at the same time should not be ignored. Dreams don't necessarily forebode our future and hence spending too much time over its literal meaning is futile. But at the same time, dreams can forebode future. :)) Robert Moss answers (author of Conscious dreaming book): Why do you think that dreams are so significant? (1) We solve problems in our sleep (2) Dreams coach us for future challenges and opportunities (3) Dreams show us what the body needs , to stay well – and get well (4) Dreams hold up a “magic mirror” to our current actions and attitudes, helping us to take an objective look at ourselves and make wiser choices (5) Dreams are a creative studio where we develop new ideas – as inventors, scientists, writers and world-changers have always done. I think its high time I start dreaming, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............ Imagine!
Having your own standard of success and satisfaction, free of comparisons with what others have achieved, earned. You could live in a single room and still feel successful and content, completely. And then from that place of contentment, all you would do is creatively create for just the joy of creating something new or honing your skills. And this would lead you to pots of money...and u didn't do anything for earning the money. Especially you didn't worry where the money came from. You just created joyfully and the money machine just rolled without any rhyme or reason. Infact you didn't care if the money came or went. Imagine! you are free of the burden of meeting someone else's standards of right or wrong and you would have your own standard -a "joyful /happiness meter" ! Abraham-Hicks says: What has caused an eroding of self-love within so many of you is comparing you and what you want with others and what they want and you and what you've got with others and what they've got. That's what causes an eroding of self-love. What causes an inclusion of self-love, an embracing of self-love, a loving of self is a 'not giving a rip what anybody else thinks' and having your eye only on this two vibrational points of relativity, where you, thought by thought, experience by experience, conversation by conversation, memory by memory, experience by experience, just train yourself into something that feels better and better and better and better and better. "Imagine" song by John Lennon - www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/johnlennon/imagine.html We are made of energy and as such are like radio transmitters and receivers.
One of the things I feel strongly against is Bullying.
It could be stemming from the fact that I have been bullied a few times as a child. There was this one "weird" bullying incident - I use to walk to my 4th grade private tuition in the afternoon, a few buildings away from my house. And an hour later, I use to return back home. A few days later I found that while coming back home a young boy (younger to me in age ) use to come walking from the opposite direction in the lane. A harmless act right!? Not so. To my utter shock, he use to come and kick my leg and then walk away as if nothing happened and I like an idiot did not react. It happened in such an unexpected way that neither did I yell at him nor did I hit/scare him, infact I did not even inform my parents. God knows why! It was so frustrating!! After multiple occurrences I had such fear of going home at that particular time that I use to wait extra time at my tuitions dilly dallying just so that I could avoid that time. If in any case I couldnt wait at tuitions for any reason then I was ready meat for that kid to scare. :)) A laughing matter now but I can still remember the fear. More so I question myself why did I not do anything about it. Coming to now...such incidents have caused me to stand against bullying a few times. Bullying not only towards me but also injustice towards others. Clearly our childhood experiences shape us to what we are today. Our experiences will continue affecting us atleast until that "emotion" stays within our aura. So everytime similar situations occur, there would be a "reaction" as the emotions still exist within our aura. Have you been bullied anytime? As I was sitting outside the ICU, I was feeling a lot of dread.
My father had been recently admitted to the hospital & my brother and I were taking turns at staying at the hospital. There was nothing much to do there and I was sitting waiting in the lounge if in any case the doctor, nurse or my dad needed me. My dad in the meanwhile was in the ICU under observation after the surgery (not too worrisome) attached to a few drips & tubes. I was not used to this at all. Since I didn't have much to do, except sit there, my monkey mind was running wild. I was getting all sorts of dreadful thoughts. But then I remembered from my learning earlier that if I was getting negative thoughts, I could visualize differently from what the current situation was and it would definitely ease out and manifest. I did have positive results earlier by doing that, when I wanted some positive things to happen And I felt that I could have a positive result even for this situation. So I did as I had learnt and I tried to remember all sorts of positive things that had occurred earlier in my life. I pictured the images of the positive outcomes in my head and remembered the positive feelings I had when some great things had worked out for me earlier. Because of remembering/recollecting those days , after sometime, I started to feel good. Then I started to imagine what I wanted for my father - a healthy, happy dad , enjoying his life, walking on his own and doing things easily. Just by doing that, my whole energy changed. I relaxed & felt at ease. I started to feel enthusiastic. From then on I felt confident he would feel better soon. The Result: The short stay at the hospital went by smoothly. My father also got discharged very soon. Not only that, the whole procedure of the paperwork & the other things at the hospital, cooperating nurses etc. went off very smoothly too. "Inspired Action"
Not just any action.....take only inspired action. And the key here is to feel 'good' and inspired How to feel inspired you ask???? Do anything, literally anything .....to feel good. Listen to your favorite song or watch a video or think beautiful memories. Once you have the good feelings which is the 1st step, then think about the task or action to take and then get inspired about that. Increase the joy of the task or action. what would be good about doing the task?, ask yourself that question. And whatever it may be. ...it could be either that you would enjoy the doing of the task or you would enjoy the result. Get inspired (2nd step) about it and immediately do the task (3rd step). Don't wait, lest the inspiration goes away. This way you will keep moving towards your desires and goal(s) steadily. With bated breath I stood outside my boss's cabin, wondering what was in store for me. Nervous but at the same time excited.
It was the D-day....my yearly performance review. While I sat on the chair, my boss said -" There was a situation where you had to be in the forefront for your team and you did well." I started to feel good. :D And then he continued, " 'As always' and 'As was expected' of you and of your experience, you worked hard to ensure that the project runs smoothly. I thought - The tone of his voice didn't sound very good. He went on..... "At the same time, it was expected that you would do something different than what you did last time. Something that would put you in consideration against others for your promotion. Unfortunately that hasn't happened." On hearing this I felt slightly disappointed. This statement I had been hearing several times. Here I was putting the extra hours, burning both ends of the candle sometimes, having poor sleep, in general taking least care of my health. My stress levels were building up. But there was this comparison with others who were doing better than me. The burgeoning work load and the thinning team size meant that doing something "different" was probably a long way away. There had also been similar situations and similar statements made to me that had occurred earlier and all of that really got me thinking..... Was it worth it?? Why did my effort fall short of being good ?? Was I not good enough?? Was it because something was wrong with me? Or was it just that i was thinking too much, that I was not upto the mark. I have to confess, I was guilty of saying similar things to my subordinates when I was on the other side of the table. Now I was getting a taste of my own medicine. And the medicine tasted bitter. :( In this competitive world I had forgotten to enjoy, unfortunately. I went home frustrated. And I called one of my mentors and told him of my confusion. I asked him ... "Why did we always have to compete? Why did we have be in a mad rush to reach ahead of others? Why do we always want to achieve something. I don't feel good at all. What should i do?? " My mentor heard me out patiently and simply said- "The answer to this is to collaborate." Exasperated i asked him - "Collaborate !! Oh I do collaborate a lot of times . And you know if I don't compete, I will be left behind others. The world will go ahead of me. If I don't compete, I will become lazy. But yes I do hate this constant looking over my shoulders. I see competitive people being intolerant of mistakes, being aggressive in a not so positive way, and are willing to step on other peoples feet. Maybe I was guilty of the same sometimes." "I do agree that being competitive makes me feel motivated to do better, yes! But at the same time I have observed if I am able to collaborate with others and we together achieve our goals, I have realized that makes me feel good. I feel as if my life has a purpose. I feel fulfilled, and less stressed. Also with a relaxed mind, I have observed that there is more scope for innovative ideas. I just needed to drop the comparisons with others and be myself. All I wanted to do is do better than my yesterday. The competition had to be inside of me, just to energize me." Finally, I realized I had answered my own question. Suddenly the picture was clear in my head! The light had dawned! Now I knew what I wanted to do. The answer was to COLLABORATE. What do you want to do in your life?? "Compete?" or "Collaborate"? The choice is yours! The other day, one of my friends complained of muscular pain that was prevalent since 3 days.
Now I have certified in Pranic Healing, which is a type of non-intrusive/no-touch, no side-effects energetic healing. So I decided to offer distance Pranic healing to her while she was at work. And I had given her the heads-up that I would give her the healing in the early afternoon, not mentioning a specific time. When she met me in the evening, she asked me whether I had actually given her the healing in the afternoon since the pain had completely subsided around that time and she was very surprised with the result. Obviously it is surprising for us, we who dont have the understanding of how the Universe works or how Universal energy works. Pranic healing is one such modality that works and may surprise. This was my article published in the January Newsletter of maitreya.co
The direct link is here - http://maitreya.co/articles/i-am-complete/ Enjoy! Time and again I have felt fearful about certain things in life, but I hadn’t really given much thought to it. But in recent times, maybe it has been from the time I started practicing meditation, I have felt the anxiety and fear and questioned its existence more. It could be because I focused on it a lot more than I did earlier. A year ago, a particular situation generated a tremendous amount of anxiety in me. Every day, a lot of anxiety came up. Sometimes I didn’t even understand why I felt anxious or the reason behind it. It was a horrible feeling. I just felt like avoiding the situation, but I couldn’t avoid it. It caused me so much headache (not literally) that I used saltwater baths, incense and even bought crystals, because I thought this would help the situation go away. But nothing happened, the situation stayed as is and the uneasy feeling didn’t go away. I remember talking to Margaret about it. I said to her, “Margaret, I don’t think crystals work! Nothing changed in my life in spite of using them”. We laughed together. She insisted they worked. She told me that I might end up facing several situations in life that would test me until I understood the effectiveness of crystals. That could be possible! I would be more than happy if that happens. Around the same time I was experiencing this debilitating anxiety, I started using different binaural beats (freely available on YouTube) for my neck pain, which was another related body pain, which got reduced to a minimum. I will write in detail later in my future posts about it. For the anxiety, I continued with my meditation (breath meditation). Some days it helped, some days it didn’t. I faced the situation however I could. Sometimes I did not feel like meditating. At such times (which were many such days) I used guided meditations before leaving the house. On one particular day, as was the norm, I was feeling extremely anxious and didn’t feel like facing the situation; I played this guided meditation (again freely available on YouTube – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2KTNiFZa2s) and within few minutes I felt so so relaxed. The feeling was of “Wholeness”, “I am whole”, I am complete”, “I don’t need anything from outside to fulfill me”, “External world cannot bother me”. This feeling was so amazing that I felt good within 10 minutes of the meditation. Then I went on to face the situation in a better manner. At this point I am not having these situations anymore in my life and hence I can’t say if I am done with all the anxiety I could possibly have in my lifetime or my soul lifetime. I may have situations where the anxiety may rear up (as Margaret said, the energy if not completed, may come back) till I have completely exhausted it, but at this point when I remember that day, I keep reminding myself that “I AM WHOLE” and it brings me back to my present moment of fullness. |
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