This was my article published in the January Newsletter of maitreya.co
The direct link is here - http://maitreya.co/articles/i-am-complete/ Enjoy! Time and again I have felt fearful about certain things in life, but I hadn’t really given much thought to it. But in recent times, maybe it has been from the time I started practicing meditation, I have felt the anxiety and fear and questioned its existence more. It could be because I focused on it a lot more than I did earlier. A year ago, a particular situation generated a tremendous amount of anxiety in me. Every day, a lot of anxiety came up. Sometimes I didn’t even understand why I felt anxious or the reason behind it. It was a horrible feeling. I just felt like avoiding the situation, but I couldn’t avoid it. It caused me so much headache (not literally) that I used saltwater baths, incense and even bought crystals, because I thought this would help the situation go away. But nothing happened, the situation stayed as is and the uneasy feeling didn’t go away. I remember talking to Margaret about it. I said to her, “Margaret, I don’t think crystals work! Nothing changed in my life in spite of using them”. We laughed together. She insisted they worked. She told me that I might end up facing several situations in life that would test me until I understood the effectiveness of crystals. That could be possible! I would be more than happy if that happens. Around the same time I was experiencing this debilitating anxiety, I started using different binaural beats (freely available on YouTube) for my neck pain, which was another related body pain, which got reduced to a minimum. I will write in detail later in my future posts about it. For the anxiety, I continued with my meditation (breath meditation). Some days it helped, some days it didn’t. I faced the situation however I could. Sometimes I did not feel like meditating. At such times (which were many such days) I used guided meditations before leaving the house. On one particular day, as was the norm, I was feeling extremely anxious and didn’t feel like facing the situation; I played this guided meditation (again freely available on YouTube – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2KTNiFZa2s) and within few minutes I felt so so relaxed. The feeling was of “Wholeness”, “I am whole”, I am complete”, “I don’t need anything from outside to fulfill me”, “External world cannot bother me”. This feeling was so amazing that I felt good within 10 minutes of the meditation. Then I went on to face the situation in a better manner. At this point I am not having these situations anymore in my life and hence I can’t say if I am done with all the anxiety I could possibly have in my lifetime or my soul lifetime. I may have situations where the anxiety may rear up (as Margaret said, the energy if not completed, may come back) till I have completely exhausted it, but at this point when I remember that day, I keep reminding myself that “I AM WHOLE” and it brings me back to my present moment of fullness. |
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